A Season of Rebirth

Hello to no one.

This is the beginning of a new chapter in my life. I have found myself here so many times before and I can’t really say if that’s good or bad. I feel at my age it is likely a bad thing. I’m just getting tired of starting over I guess.

First, my relationship with my partner ended after three tumultuous years. Like many experiences with young love, our relationship was founded on one thing. Pleasure. It was a pleasure being around them at first because we played well together. It flowed, and in the beginning of young love that’s all the focus. It is a selfish act, only seeking the love and attention of this singular person with little to no consideration of anything outside of that. The pleasure of the moment. I think I could write a short story about the experience, beginning to end but not here. Moving on…

Second, I am now forced to find a new place to live and am really not looking forward to it. I find myself questioning my life here in Tulsa as I have in the past but am determined to stay put. I want a consistent life for once. I want a home. Some place I can finally unpack the boxes I’ve carried for so long. A place I can hang pictures on the walls. My pictures on my walls. I’ve never had that.

Lastly, I’ve acquired another business to absorb into my own and am both excited and frightened at what this new year will bring for me. I feel this is a year I will level up in a big way. More responsibility, more opportunities, more money, more independence. And hopefully more happiness. I need it. Anyway, if you read this, thank you.

I’m getting over covid and took a walk in the park alone today so I could get some sun and fresh air. Here are some photos I took. I hope you enjoy.